closing time.

 Sat we headed out to the park for a picnic! The weather was awesome so we wanted to soak it up! :)
jason had been working all week so i was so happy to have my partner back with me! ha! :)

this week was hard on mccoy. we cut the tip of his paci wed night. (so now they "don't work, broken!") he has been spittin fire and just ANGRY about his paci's not working. he has been getting up in the middle of the night crying about it and been sleeping with us. he couldn't get down for a nap on thursday. so needless to say my nostalgic 2 weeks with the kids kind of hit the reality check wall! haha!
to be honest though it really hasn't been as bad as i thought it was going to be. he is defiantly having withdrawals and is feeling VERY sad and angry but last night, which would have been night 5,  he slept all the way through the night in his own bed..which was huge.. and wasn't too awful bad to get down. (jason will disagree with me on the going to sleep part)
i have mentioned this on here multiple times but mccoy LOVES his dada. LOVES him. if he has a choice he wants jason to rock him etc. i have always loved that! :) he still loves his mama too and i still get lots of lovin.... but since i have been home he has switched to wanting me to do everything. which is totally fine but i miss that dada! haha! it does make me feel bad though because i think mccoy really needed some lovin time with me.i think liza is good at asking for a  lot of my attention and i could just tell mccoy needed some extra lovin and kisses and one on one time from me these few weeks. i have loved his cuddles. just loved it. and of course, i have turned it into a friendly little competition between me and jason....
who can get him to sleep the fastest??? so far i am BLOWING my competition away. haha.
you HAVE to make something fun when you are wrestling an almost 3 year old coming off paci addiction. it is serious stuff. very serious.

 so needless to say we have been trying to stay very busy through the paci withdrawal so mccoy is extra tired when it is time to lay his head down!!! :) wed. chloe came over and played. Thursday the landers came down to play. the weather has been so great we have gotten to play outside a TON. Friday we went and met owen and reese at boingo bounce. Yesterday we went to the roarks to get a bite of black eyed peas and love on those boys!

the pic below is what i sent to jason on friday. i had worked VERY hard at getting mccoy down for a nap. it wasn't easy stuff and he had LOTS of tears. but i finally did it. he was fast asleep. i sat down and sent jason a text that i finally had both kids asleep but i was in a sweat and missed my parenting partner and couldn't wait to have a cocktail when he got home!!!! haha! literally one second later this guy popped into my room...pee and POOP in his underwear.
and i mean seriously....IS there an easy way to get POOP out of the underwear, while getting the underwear off the child and into a toilet????
totally gross and really a challenge. if there is a secret out there i would like to know.

 so you can guess how excited we were that coco and cricket came to the rescue and asked to have liza and mccoy spin the night new years eve! :) we took them over there when they got home from eating at bordinos and my mom had lots of nye flair for the kiddos and they took off for the square!
jason and i had our first alone date in a million years and went to eat at the new vetro restaurant that was really good! we also met casey and roman for a few drinks! :) we were feeling kinda special! thank you again coco and cricket!!!!!! we went and got them the next day and mom had our black eyed peas ready to go with a " biscuit" party for brunch! :) love ya'll! ;)

and of course.....here we are. time to go back to the real world and start work back!
i can feel the anxiousness in my belly. i am promising myself not to turn my work computer on till tonight. i have been so proud of myself for not working or thinking about it one second while i've been off. i actually worked the first two days i was off and the kids were at school but the second school was out i shut down everything and put it away. that is not easy for me to do. i look at my calendar for january and it is FULL. we will be gone this weekend to dallas..i have a meeting in tulsa next week with a dinner meeting in ft.smith the night before that...the next week i have an overnight in batesville. and each day of the month is packed to the fullest. oh and then i have that dang meeting in CA for a week in Feb. you know how i think about that kind of thing for months before i leave.
i am good when i'm busy. (or am i just telling myself that?? ;) )
i am GRATEFUL for my job.
i know there are lots of people out there looking for jobs and i can't complain about having one. i just can't.
i push myself with work a lot.
if i am not succeeding where i think i should be i kind of freak out in my head. haha. i know i shouldn't but i can't feel like i am dissapointing anyone.
it is my motivator!!! ;)
anywho--enough about that.
i am going to miss these slow mornings of coffee and cuddles.
i guess that is why they are so special to me.
i guess that is why i have felt so lucky to be home the past two weeks.
lucky.
i feel lucky.